Here's to hoping this blog helps me dig my way out of a hole I'm already in fairly deep. And it's not any one item... lately, it was the baby clothes at Gap. I focus on one store, shopping online repeatedly until the order status in my account was embarrassingly long-- so long that my husband would walk straight out the door and file for divorce. Then, after some buyer's remorse that has me returning some of the items my mind has decided I can live without, there's another store. Currently, I'm obsessing over Anthropologie. I'm not lying when I say that I have a package waiting at my doorstep every afternoon... but oh, the bliss... new clothes, new outfits, new looks that will make me cooler, happier, whatever. Then, the credit card explodes, while I rush to send hoards of things back, all the while hoping (but not really knowing) that the balance drops below the scary crazy level it's currently floating around. Please don't make me have to use another balance transfer... I have too many already.
But this is what this blog is for. Not for anyone else to read, notice, or find. Its sole purpose is to give me the strength to stop a harmful addiction, before my husband finds out, before my family finds out, before I'm in anymore over my head. I will use it to track myself and each day I will try to write in it. I don't want to be like this. I don't need things to be happy-- I have a wonderful husband, and beautiful baby and my little sweet puppy. I just need to be strong. And this blog will help me.
I currently owe:
ASCE Mastercard, 0.99% due 6/2010 -- $7,955.44
WorldPoints Visa, 1.99% due 7/2010 -- $4,120.00
Amazon Visa, 3.99% never expires -- $4080.44
L.L. Bean Visa, current balance, $13,700.02.
Eek. Oh God. I do have some returns I need to work on. I guess that's what tomorrow's for.
Oh, and no purchases tomorrow, unless it's the baby's Christmas gifts. That's it, that's all. No more Anthro, unless something I have goes on sale. Help me blog, help me be strong.
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